Taylor Swift Dictates My Life...

Hollaaa at ma girrlllsss!!!

Oh geez. I am so white. Ahaha, oh well, I still enjoy being a goofball :)

I suppose I should start with the less exciting aspects of my life… School is meh, I’m finding I’m having a really hard time staying on top of things and keeping up with labs and stuff. I just feel like I have zero drive to do any kind of schoolwork. But I’m managing.

Next week is the Royal Winter Fair! Woo! I’ve been obsessing over the live feed. Ponies today!! :D Eeeee so cute! Valerie, I will message you about deets for Wednesday I think we agreed on? I’ve got some serious shopping to do :p

Tomorrow is my Opa’s 90^th birthday, which was put together veerryyy last minute due to a potential cancer scare (all is well, phew!) so I’ll be spending the majority of tonight and tomorrow morning decorating the local rec centre. Joyous.

My brother has made it to Vancouver for his road trip! In case any of you care… Haha, they were going to Tofino today to try out surfing. Sounds bloody cold, but so much fun! I’m mad jealous of him. They went skiing a couple days ago when they were in Banff. I told him on their way back, they had to stop by camp and take a picture outside the gates for me!

Otherwise, not much excitement is happening with me that hasn’t already been said. Mr. Keener is still texting me on occasion, but I’m ignoring him for the most part. Hopefully he will soon forget about me… Haha, and if not, I have a back up plan!

Not sure if I’ve mentioned it, but I’ve been chatting with my friend from camp, Sparkles, a lot recently via text message and he’s made it quite clear that he’s in to me. And the more I talk to him, the more I like him too. At camp, he came across as an occasionally over-confidant guy who knew that he was good at his job. That being said, he actually was really good at his job of counseling kidlettes. It was his second year at camp, and due to staff shortages, he ended up doing two and a half sessions solo. All his campers loved him, or at least the ones that I got to interact with. I went on overnight twice with him, and it was always a good time hanging out at the campfire with him and the rest of the counselors after their campers went to bed, making wayyy too many s’mores. Haha, I had him on overnight for the last session, which was such a good time. I was the only girl there (it was a boys cabin that Sparkles was solo-ing, and he had one of the raft guides with him as support, who is also a dude, and then Bear was my co-wrangler) so the night was filled with burping and fart jokes and other such hilarity. I definitely preferred taking boys on overnights than girls.  

 The rest of the wranglers disliked him, but I think that was mostly because they knew him during his first year of counseling, when he was apparently wayyy more arrogant and cocky, especially when it came to the horse program. I personally never had a problem with him all summer, but never really tried to get to know him based the other wranglers opinions of him.

I guess my point is that the dude is growing on me. He lives pretty close to you, Dawn, and goes to your neighbouring college. We Skyped earlier this week, and it was really nice, not only to get caught up on all the camp gossip, (potential for THREE male wranglers next year??? Madness!!) but also to actually see people from camp, instead of just texting or Facebooking. It kind of makes my whole amazing camp experience a little less surreal. It was a little reminder that I have connections and experiences outside of good ol’ Petey and it makes me happy that knowing that. I love my school and my family, but ever since I’ve been home from Alberta, I can’t help but feel like I’ve been a little stuck. Kind of like I’m in my own personal rut and I’m just waiting for the next big thing to come along. Does that make sense? I totally did not mean to write about this, but it just kind of came out… Funny how sitting down and writing your inner monologue will do that :)

Anyways, aside from that unintentional tangent, I was telling Sparkles about Mr. K., and he told me that if he does actually show up in Petey to do a show, (which I’m still a little skeptical that that will actually happen, Mr. K. does not seem to be the type to follow through with things) Sparkles has offered to come to Petey to attend the show with me (which I already told Mr. K. that I would attend... I was slightly drunk, don’t judge me!!) and pretend to be my boyfriend so that Mr. K. would hopefully back off.

(I do realize that whole paragraph was one giant run-on sentence, but I am way too lazy to edit it :p)

So that’s a thing. Sparkles may be coming to Petey to hold my hand and cuddle with me in front of Mr. K. and I can’t say that I’m not looking forward to the possibility! Sparkles is a very loyal friend, the kind of person that would literally do anything for you, which makes me feel really good that he’s offered to take care of me like that :) I also feel like his offer is more attractive due to the fact that my dry spell is now up to 81 days and counting. This is getting ridiculous. I’ve got another Skype date with Sparkles next week, and also one of the other counselors, Scout, who’s house he’s staying at. Should be fun :)

Koopa is still in the picture, but I’m trying to distance myself from him a bit in a way. When we talk, its more witty little comments and hilarious jokes, and that’s about it. No long, drawn out, heart-to-heart conversations like we used to have. I do really miss it, and I would love to Skype with him and have an actual conversation, just to hear his voice and really get caught up with him. I can’t help but feel that my relationship with Sparkles is making him a tiny bit jealous. Koops and I haven’t been able to Skype yet because he doesn’t have a power cord for his lap top, but when I told him I had talked to Sparkles, he immediately offered to Skype right at that moment with his phone, but alas, I had to go back to school at that point.

With the distance between us, I keep telling myself that we can’t really have that connection that we used to in the summer; it’s too much for me to try to keep that up with everything else going on. We’re good friends and that’s all. I don’t want to tell myself that anything more than that is even remotely possible, because I know I’ll just confuse and upset myself. He doesn’t make it easy, making comments about missing me and my body and my kisses and reminding me of the time we hooked up in a teepee… But I’m trying really hard to not think of it as anything more than just two friends joking around and recalling some good times we shared together.  

Gahhhh I need to just blast my new Taylor Swift CD and make everything better… :p I think the best song to describe this current situation would be “I Almost Do”. See the link bellow. I swear to god, there is a Taylor Swift song to describe every single situation I’ve ever been in :p I’m pretty sure Antonio’s song is “All Too Well.”  You should look that one up too. I just fucking love her. Life Goal: See T-Swizzle live in concert.

So now I guess I’m just thinking about how god damn awkward it will be at camp next year if both Sparkles and Koopa come back… Think there will be a Taylor Swift song about that??

<3 <3 <3 Michele.

p.s., I am so sorry that this is so long!! :p I did not intend for this to turn out to be a two and a half page post, but what can you do!